“Burning Inside, Not Burning Out”
Rev. Kurt Hohmann
Embodying Resilience
- Imbolc
- Sits awkwardly between deep winter and obvious spring
- Nothing looks resolved yet
- The world is changing in places no one can see
- A time of persistence before proof
- Seeds swelling underground
- Doing crucial work invisibly
- Lactation beginning before lambs are born
- Nourishment prepared in advance of need
- Fire not as blaze, but as banked coals
- Kept alive through winter
- Seeds swelling underground
- Movements, like seasons, have winters
- Winter work matters
- People resisting sometimes despair that nothing is working
- Imbolc says, “This is not failure; this is just the slow part.”
- Sits awkwardly between deep winter and obvious spring
- Resilience: Strength in what is small and hidden
- Resilience is not the loud part
- Often doesn’t look like marching or chanting
- Sometimes looks like continuing to exist, care, and hope
- Even when the world gives no immediate feedback
- Not all resistance is confrontational
- Forms of resistance that don’t make headlines
- But make movements survivable
- Mutual aid
- Rest
- Tending relationships
- Learning skills
- Staying morally awake
- Forms of resistance that don’t make headlines
- Resilience is not the loud part
- Embodying Resilience
- In addition to resisting unjust laws, systems, or leaders, we resist demands to disconnect from our bodies
- Stay present instead of dissociating
- Systems of power try to set the tempo
- Constant breaking news
- Moral emergencies
- Rapid-response outrage
- If we match that pace indefinitely, we burn out
- Breathing is a refusal of imposed tempo
- When you can breathe, you can think
- When you can think, you can choose
- When you can choose, you remain human
- The nervous system as battleground
- Fear vs. regulation
- Panic vs. grounded action
- A body that can rest is harder to control than one constantly afraid
- Rest is not acceptance
- Fatigue is feedback, not failure
- A sign of caring, not weakness
- It happens from giving energy, attention, or love to something that matters deeply
- Giving outpaces replenishing
- Indifference and apathy don’t exhaust themselves
- We tire because we care
- Fatigue does not mean:
- You are not tough enough
- You are not radical enough
- You are not disciplined enough
- You are not spiritually strong enough
- Retreat is sometimes part of advance
- In addition to resisting unjust laws, systems, or leaders, we resist demands to disconnect from our bodies
- Communal Resilience
- Resistance collapses when we believe we must be heroic alone
- The danger of martyrdom culture
- Resilience is a distributed property of community
- The sacredness of saying, “I can’t today,” and being answered with, “Then rest.”
- “I will carry this with you.”
- No single flame lights the world
- But many small flames prevent total darkness
- Resistance collapses when we believe we must be heroic alone
Stories
- Demeter
- Demeter is the goddess of grain and harvest
- Persephone, daughter of Demeter, is gathering flowers when the earth opens and Hades takes her into the underworld
- Demeter hears her daughter’s cry
- She searches everywhere, across land and sea
- She refuses to eat
- She refuses to rest
- She carries torches and wanders the world in grief
- Zeus, Persephone’s father, has consented to the abduction
- No one tells Demeter
- When she learns what has happened, she:
- Does not storm Olympus
- Does not plead
- Does not accept
- Simply withdraws her gift
- Crops fail
- Seeds do not sprout
- The earth grows cold
- Humanity begins to starve
- It is not that Demeter cannot grow grain
- It is that she will not
- Compromise
- Persephone will spend part of the year below and part above
- When Persephone returns, Demeter allows the earth to bloom again
- The seasons result
- Demeter’s grief is not quiet
- She does not accept what has been done
- She does not “trust the process”
- She withdraws her gifts
- Winter happens because she refuses to cooperate
- With injustice
- With a system that treats her daughter as expendable
- Demeter does not break the world
- She reveals what the world depends on
Demeter’s Protest
- The gods intervene only when:
- Crops fail
- Humans starve
- Sacrifices cease
- Normal operations are disrupted
- Power ignores grief until grief interrupts the economy.
- Demeter’s resilience is not passive endurance.
- It is sustained refusal.
- It is not cheerfulness.
- It is moral clarity.
- Demeter embodies the moment when love says “No.”
- To harm.
- To abduction.
- To the casual use of power.
- Her winter is not weakness.
- It is protest.
- Anger and grief are sacred.
Burning Inside, Not Burning Out
- Righteous refusal can become self-consuming fire.
- How do we hold onto Demeter’s moral clarity without letting the world freeze—or ourselves collapse?
- Winter, left untended, can become total.
- Demeter’s refusal nearly destroys everything, including what she loves.
- Imbolc does not end Demeter’s winter.
- It marks the moment when the ground remembers what it is capable of.
- The soil is still cold.
- Loss is still real.
- And yet… something stirs.
Brigid: Embodied Resilience
- Brigid embodies resilience through:
- Fire
- Inspiration.
- Justice.
- Refusal to go numb.
- Water
- Healing.
- Grief.
- Adaptability.
- Craft
- Skill.
- Patience.
- Repetition.
- Not just endurance, but skillful endurance.
- Fire that warms without burning out.
- Water that yields but also erodes stone.
- Fire
- Craft as resistance.
- Doing something well and carefully in a culture of haste and harm.
- Authoritarian systems depend on exhaustion and despair.
- Craft, beauty, and care are not distractions from resistance—they are counter-practices.
- Brigid’s perpetual flame.
- Associated with Saint Brigid at the Church of the Oak in Kildare.
- Tended continuously by a community of women.
- Burned without being diminished.
- Likely has pre-Christian roots connected to the goddess Brigid.
- Her fire is:
- Contained.
- Guarded.
- Sustained.
- Communal.
- Not wildfire, but hearth fire.
- Brigid’s fire symbolizes:
- Continuity.
- Inspiration.
- Protection.
- Sacred presence.
- It is not:
- Conquest.
- Spectacle.
- Martyrdom.
- Exhaustion.
- It is disciplined, sustainable devotion.
- It does not try to melt the whole winter in one night.
- Instead it says:
- “Spring will come.”
- “But tonight, we keep each other warm.”
Braiding the Stories
- Demeter is the winter we create when we refuse injustice.
- Brigid is the flame we keep so refusal does not destroy us.
- Demeter teaches that grief can change the world.
- Brigid teaches that tending can sustain the griever.
- Demeter is the power to withdraw life.
- Brigid is the power to bank the coals.
- Demeter shows us when to say “No.”
- Brigid teaches us how to endure.
- Demeter shows us that change cannot be undone.
- Persephone returns—but not fully.
- The world does not go back to “before.”
- Justice is partial.
- Loss leaves a mark.
- The seasons are the scar of grief.
- Demeter does not “get over it.”
- She learns to live with what cannot be undone.
- Resilience is adaptation, not erasure.
- Resilience is the rhythm between fierce refusal and careful tending.
Embodied Application
- Demeter lives:
- In our anger.
- In our “enough” when harm is normalized.
- In the exhaustion of refusing to accept “this is how things are.”
- In every person who steps back rather than participate in injustice.
- Brigid lives:
- In our breath.
- In our rest.
- In our craft.
- Demeter disrupts systems.
- Brigid sustains people.
- If we live only in Demeter:
- We burn out.
- If we live only in Brigid:
- We may adapt to what should not be tolerated.
- Hold the burning inside—but don’t burn out.
Closing
- Imbolc sits at the seasonal hinge.
- Winter has not ended.
- Spring has not arrived.
- Demeter is still negotiating.
- Brigid is still tending.
- Demeter and Brigid sit on opposite sides of the same threshold.
- One embodies the refusal that creates winter.
- The other embodies the fire that survives within it.
- We need to find both within ourselves.
- We are allowed to be winter.
- We are required to keep the fire.
- Let your grief refuse what harms the world.
- Let your inner flame keep you human while you do.
- Resilience is not:
- Endless endurance.
- Emotional numbness.
- Winning at all costs.
- Sacrificing ourselves to prove a point.
- Resilience is:
- Staying human.
- Staying connected.
- Staying capable of love and anger at the same time.
- At Imbolc, we do not ask whether spring is guaranteed.
- We ask only whether we will keep the fire alive long enough to meet it.
Embodied Resilience Practice
- Place a hand on your chest and feel warmth and breath.
- Focus on:
- “What is quietly growing in me?”
- Remember:
- Demeter’s grief constricts the world into winter.
- Brigid’s fire warms it.
- Breath is the small inner fire.
- Not a blaze, but a glowing coal.
- Take a deep breath.
- It counteracts the body language of defeat.
- It doesn’t solve injustice.
- It keeps you from collapsing under it.
